College summer blues

summer bluesWhen I started my college career, I knew of all of the struggles and potential perils that would await me — like the money, loans, football, classes, college life, and summer. Summer was not something I had ever imagined as being a difficult or challenging. Don’t get me wrong. It has been hard in the sense of finding a job in this rough economic time.

I thought for sure I would get my position back at the plastics factory from last summer. But management there hasn’t hired anyone in a while. I have been looking for pretty hard for anything – from factory work to retail to restaurant bus boy. It’s been a real pain looking for that elusive job continuously. The jobs that college kids used to get are going to adults who have to feed their children. This is quite a new experience for me because last summer I got the first job I applied for and it paid $12 an hour. I felt blessed. I began right after I graduated from high school.

It did some great things for me, like learning how to schedule my life. It helped me learn some pretty valuable lessons in life – like half the battle is getting up and going to do whatever you have to do. Also, I figured out in my youth that if you never try something, you’ll never know what it feels like.

It was strange because I’ve never had a job before the one I had last summer. I had always worked on our family farm – sometimes for pretty measly pay and sometimes for free. As a kid, I was pretty used to doing nothing in the summer except helping around the house, swimming, biking, or whatever I wanted to do.

It just came so easy getting a job last summer, but that is not happening this time around. I need the money. My bank account is down to $9. I also have no clue what I will be doing for my college education. If I have no money from a job then how can I possibly attempt to go back full-time, even to a community college? I know that my mother will do her best to help me, and I have grandparents that want to see me succeed.

It’s July, I’m broke, and I don’t have a job. I don’t have any money even to do the simple things like eat pizza with friends or go to the movies. That is a challenge because that’s never happened to me before. I’m always looking for a job but maybe I’m not trying hard enough or I’m unwilling to get my hands dirty like manual labor or something. I’m going to detassle in mid-July. I don’t know how much they’ll pay but I hope it’s going to be enough. I guess when you have no money, you have money to lose, too.

I know that I will keep on trying because I still need a job for the fall when I do go back to college. I suppose I could get a job through work study, too, since my FAFSA shows me as low-income. But that status didn’t help much when it came to the private college. They still wanted mega bucks for me to go there. I guess once I get my first two years down, I will be willing to pay a higher price to get my bachelor’s degree. Looks like I’ll just have to wait and see what life has to offer, and ultimately what I want to do with that life.

 

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